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Intro

"No.2" is a song by TAKUTO that I really like. It's a pretty dark song that deals with mental health and stuff. It stands out to me because it does a wonderful job of evoking a feeling of dread and anxiety in the listener. In my interpretation, I think it's about someone who sees someone kill themselves, has a mental breakdown, and kills themself in the same way.

I decided to write this because I've been listening to it a ton recently and I just really wanted to talk about why I like it so much and the feelings it makes me feel. This song is very impactful for me and is one of the most realistic and hard hitting songs about suicide I think I've ever heard.

This won't be as comphrehensive as my other analysis because I'm definitely more open to interpretation here and I feel like there are a lot of lines in this song that can mean different things. Also, I want to talk about some things I like about the song instead of this being a straight up 100% analysis.

Stuff I like

The thing that initially hooked me to this song is how incredibly emotional TAKUTO manages to sound in his singing. Partucularly in the part right before the last chorus, he's literally screaming out to the listener and it's incredibly impactful.

This song switches between fast pace and slow-ish pace, but the majority is fast, and the lyrical arrangement combined with this makes it feel like someone in the middle of an anxiety attack frantically trying to make sense of their thoughts.

I also like the clock ticking sound in some parts of the song, it gives me the thought that this person's time is ticking and it's only a matter or time before it's up. It adds to the dread quite a bit, because you know something is going to happen.

Ryuuseee's video style works wonderfully for this song as well and they did a wonderful job. I think it really adds a lot.

Meaning

The lyrics are a bit tough to interpret on their own, but with context everything makes a lot more sense. Most of them are describing feelings of depression, worthlessness, and a lack of understanding purpose. I'll explain where my interpretation from earlier comes from:

"Since that day, I lacked determination." "Legs frozen in place, blisters that can't be broken. On the walkway above metal boxes called trains, scenery that simply carries, runs over and steps on organic material called people. Blood spills countless times like ripened pomegranate seeds"

This, combined with the visuals in the video near this part, lead me to believe that the main character saw someone being hit by a train. His weird descriptions of trains and people might be him dissociating, having an existential crisis, and/or just trying to make sense of what happened.

From here the song goes into a lot of depression-related stuff like I mentioned earlier. Lyrics like "I have no right to live, it's stupid" "Could have been any of the million of sperm, but I happened to be born" "What kind of lame lie is it that if you can't love yourself you can't love anybody?"

And then, right before the last chorus:

"When I tell them to watch out, and put my hands on the fence, the countdown starts. THE TRAIN IS COMING FOR ME. I hope the plot isn't resolved as a dream..."

This is my favorite part in the entire song. The first line building up to the second, showing that he's made his decision and his life is now on a countdown. The raw emotion as he screams the second line, in the last moments of his life. He says this line with both fear and determination. The third line uses the word Yumeochi (this font doesnt support Japanese text so just pretend ok. Yume is kanji and ochi is katakana), which is that kind of ending in stories where it was all a dream. It illustrates that the main character is hoping he dies for real and does not wake up.

The song plays the last chorus and ends with "Inferiority, envy, please abandon"

This line is repeated throughout the song and honestly I'm not 100% sure what it means. I think "please abandon" means "please abandon [me]" due to the particles used, but as it's an incomplete sentence, it's really hard to know. Inferiority might be referring to how he feels less than other people which fuels his depression, or maybe he feels like since he's inferior to the guy that died he should've died instead. Again, I really don't know lol

Finally, the video ends with a crash sound and a blood splatter, and it's not hard to guess what happened.

Conclusion and my thoughts

No.2 does an incredible job at evoking emotions, making you think about the fragility of life, and portraying this messy anxiety filled breakdown of someone who was confronted with that by force.

If I listen to this song at the wrong time, I usually get kind of upset. However, if I'm already upset, then it tends to make me feel better, particularly if I'm in a really bad state of mind and just need something to relate to and help me work through stuff. I like this song because of how powerful it is and how it can leave an impact on you for a while after you listen to it. It puts things into words things that I can't bring myself to say. I like it a lot its an epic song go listen to it